My nipples hurt, my back is killing me, and all i want is chocolate :(
looking back, wow. the changes ? drastic, yet I’m completely the same.
what have I learned ? oodles. would I take it back ? no, I just regret my reasons
there isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t think about him, I know he was gonna be a boy, I just know.
I can relive it all vividly, like it was 2 hours ago.
nobody understands what its like to look down and see hefty bag on under your ass and then be knocked out. there wasn’t any time to think, I didn’t want to disappoint my mom, she wanted me to have a full life and to have every possible opportunity and to not be held back like she was by us.
I know I would of made a great mom, and its easy for people to say “abortion is wrong” or “you shouldn’t of gotten rid of it” ; well it wasn’t your choice and this life I live isn’t yours.
I would of loved to been able to keep him, but that would of been stupid and selfish cause his father didn’t want him, i couldn’t provide for him, and I wasn’t mentally ready to be a mom. it would of just been unfair.
I loved him from the beginning, and everyday I love him more.
there will never be a day that I don’t think about him, he has affected everything about me and taught me things that nobody else can, everything I do is for him, cause I don’t want to fuck it up again.
people ask me if I am still pro-choice even after everything been threw, and my answer is and will always be ; yes, just don’t do it for the wrong reasons.
I’m not looking for a fling and I am choosing wisely, maybe you’ll call it picky.
#Don’tYouBeHoldingBack
